Ego As Companion

Posted by Phillip Gordon on Thursday, January 28, 2010
There is a wave through the world toward a new spiritual awareness.  Many questions are being asked about living this life well; becoming whole, empowered, finding one’s passion, living from greatness.  I think it would be true to say that one of the most prominent ideas that has been around for thousands of years is that we have a soul and an ego.  That if we are living our lives from ego we will tend toward dysfunctional behaviour, and if we are living from our souls we will be living free of ego conditions.  I am have been asking for some time whether or not this really serves us, or whether this idea when approached simplistically will in fact recreate a state of duality, of separation.   Contained within this idea of ego versus soul is the view that we are whole already, and that when we land in the world of soul, step out of the ego’s grip, we will discover this wholeness. 

What concerns me is this.  If the ego is so terribly useless, why do we have one?  What is the point of it?  Where did it come from?  Why do we walk around with this appendage of dysfunction?

After many years of consideration and experiment with my own life I have come to the conclusion that it is not useless.  That it has a very important role in our existence.  Not only is it the vehicle, the space suit as Gurdjieff coined, it is also the barometer, the talisman of the soul.  I have not found anyone as yet who can point to the soul and tell me exactly where it is.  So to a certain degree we are left with an idea, the principle of soul.  We know where the heart is, the brain, the body, we can even comprehend the impact of our thinking in deep psychological terms.  The soul remains a mystery, yet with correct attention one gets a sense of it, that being deep within looking out at us looking out, the intelligence of our being, our presence.  Yet the soul needs the body to smell that meal cooking as we enter someone’s home, to be nourished by that majestic vista that takes our breath away, to be touched by the smoothness of a fine piece of pottery. 

Well that is the body and five senses.  What does the ego do?  If we discard the world of the ego out of hand we are throwing away something that we built, something we created.  Don’t believe the hype that the ego created itself; it could not have done so as it was not around until it was created.  There must have been something present first to create it.  Nothing comes from nothing.  If we follow the argument it is obvious to me that the soul was here first, and that it’s first masterful creation was the ego.  Now this does not discard the idea that the ego was constructed through the avoidance of pain, that we made decisions, invented meaning for our lives, based on seeking the good experiences and avoiding the destructive.  What it does point to however is the idea that it was soul that made those decisions, Soul that appointed the meanings and definitions that we come to live by in our private worlds. 

Surely if soul was here first, and if soul is the place to aim for in life, this powerful aspect of our consciousness would have made a vehicle that would serve it in the long run.  It is certain that if we stay fixed and identified with the world in which the ego was formed we will remain lost, confined to a narrow existence.  Yet if we continue to view the ego as a bundle of mistakes waiting to happen, we miss the very nub of its purpose.  We must journey down through our beings, not to discard the ego, rather to discover what it is telling us, what it is pointing toward in our inner terrain.  We need to climb down into the dark caverns of our own existence and retrieve the gold that rests there waiting to be found.  The ego is the trail of breadcrumbs to lead us there.  Once we discover the world of soul, we are able to shift the relationship we have with ego, and use it constructively, rather than being compelled, pushed forward from our past, we are free to choose when to use the various skills and talents now found in its dimension.  The ego becomes a friend.  If wholeness means tossing the ego aside, surely we are no longer whole.  Each and every aspect of our humanness is beautiful, useful and integral to our existence.  It is a matter of having the courage to face one’s self, to discover the gifts inherent within us.  In some ways it is easier to simply fall into the soul’s world and constantly disregard the ego.  Wholeness is not optional.


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Phillip C Gordon I am an Alchemist, falling into the fires of transformation over and over as I realise the gold that I am. I choose to serve all humanity to that end, to raise the consciousness of humanity, one by one if that be the case. I am a writer, a speaker, an actor and fool.

Ego As Companion

Posted by Phillip Gordon on Thursday, January 28, 2010
There is a wave through the world toward a new spiritual awareness.  Many questions are being asked about living this life well; becoming whole, empowered, finding one’s passion, living from greatness.  I think it would be true to say that one of the most prominent ideas that has been around for thousands of years is that we have a soul and an ego.  That if we are living our lives from ego we will tend toward dysfunctional behaviour, and if we are living from our souls we will be living free of ego conditions.  I am have been asking for some time whether or not this really serves us, or whether this idea when approached simplistically will in fact recreate a state of duality, of separation.   Contained within this idea of ego versus soul is the view that we are whole already, and that when we land in the world of soul, step out of the ego’s grip, we will discover this wholeness. 

What concerns me is this.  If the ego is so terribly useless, why do we have one?  What is the point of it?  Where did it come from?  Why do we walk around with this appendage of dysfunction?

After many years of consideration and experiment with my own life I have come to the conclusion that it is not useless.  That it has a very important role in our existence.  Not only is it the vehicle, the space suit as Gurdjieff coined, it is also the barometer, the talisman of the soul.  I have not found anyone as yet who can point to the soul and tell me exactly where it is.  So to a certain degree we are left with an idea, the principle of soul.  We know where the heart is, the brain, the body, we can even comprehend the impact of our thinking in deep psychological terms.  The soul remains a mystery, yet with correct attention one gets a sense of it, that being deep within looking out at us looking out, the intelligence of our being, our presence.  Yet the soul needs the body to smell that meal cooking as we enter someone’s home, to be nourished by that majestic vista that takes our breath away, to be touched by the smoothness of a fine piece of pottery. 

Well that is the body and five senses.  What does the ego do?  If we discard the world of the ego out of hand we are throwing away something that we built, something we created.  Don’t believe the hype that the ego created itself; it could not have done so as it was not around until it was created.  There must have been something present first to create it.  Nothing comes from nothing.  If we follow the argument it is obvious to me that the soul was here first, and that it’s first masterful creation was the ego.  Now this does not discard the idea that the ego was constructed through the avoidance of pain, that we made decisions, invented meaning for our lives, based on seeking the good experiences and avoiding the destructive.  What it does point to however is the idea that it was soul that made those decisions, Soul that appointed the meanings and definitions that we come to live by in our private worlds. 

Surely if soul was here first, and if soul is the place to aim for in life, this powerful aspect of our consciousness would have made a vehicle that would serve it in the long run.  It is certain that if we stay fixed and identified with the world in which the ego was formed we will remain lost, confined to a narrow existence.  Yet if we continue to view the ego as a bundle of mistakes waiting to happen, we miss the very nub of its purpose.  We must journey down through our beings, not to discard the ego, rather to discover what it is telling us, what it is pointing toward in our inner terrain.  We need to climb down into the dark caverns of our own existence and retrieve the gold that rests there waiting to be found.  The ego is the trail of breadcrumbs to lead us there.  Once we discover the world of soul, we are able to shift the relationship we have with ego, and use it constructively, rather than being compelled, pushed forward from our past, we are free to choose when to use the various skills and talents now found in its dimension.  The ego becomes a friend.  If wholeness means tossing the ego aside, surely we are no longer whole.  Each and every aspect of our humanness is beautiful, useful and integral to our existence.  It is a matter of having the courage to face one’s self, to discover the gifts inherent within us.  In some ways it is easier to simply fall into the soul’s world and constantly disregard the ego.  Wholeness is not optional.


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